Unbelievable! It's June already! Before I forget, here are some birthday wishes...Razi (today), Reyhan, Austin, Bethany, Kristin, Kelly, my dear Jim, Jean, and many more I'm sure.
We have been blessed with a new kitten (which I mentioned in an earlier post). Her name is Abby (Abigail). I think we are really in for a wild ride with this one. She flies. She is fearless. She never stops meowing...even in her sleep! Our other cats are still afraid of her. Such cat growling and hissing. I've finally let them all loose in the house and let happen whatever will.
In a few days, it will be four months since Jim passed away. Days seem to go by as usual, but there is an absence always present. The first couple of months seemed like he had just gone away for a while. But, now it has really become apparent that he won't be coming back. I know that sounds silly, but my emotions tell me that and leave me quite lonely at times. In the beginning, I felt this awful sense of responsibility. That everything is now on my shoulders. I find myself constantly saying, Jim would have done this, or remember how Jim used to do this, and mostly, how would Jim do this? I also know now why Jim did some things the way he did. This rambling sounds odd, but it is an example of how my mind travels throughout the days.
I've given away most of Jim's clothing. I have kept a small closet filled with some clothes and other things that were too close to part with right now. Other things, I've been getting rid of bit by bit. One of his hobbies was collecting pipes. Yes, the smoking kind. Although, he never really smoked them, he seemed to love having a variety of them. Another of his hobbies was collecting pens. Yes, the writing kind. And, other collectible items included watches. Yes, the kind that tell time. Some of all of these things I will save to pass on to those in my family who might want to keep them. Others I am parting with. One of the things I can't seem to let go of is a hat that was his favorite. Actually, several of them. And, his bathrobe still hangs on the back of the bedroom door. Maybe in a couple of months I'll be able to move closer to parting with more of his things.
Payday tomorrow! Thank God! This has been another of my challenges. Less income, bad habits, and finding the right mix between grocery shopping, eating fast foods, or starving. Well, not really. But, money sure is one of my many challenges. Realistic budgeting has become mandatory, and sticking to the budget is crucial. One of Jim's tricks was to hide away $100. Then when it got near the end of the month and it seemed like we had no more money to get us through, out would come this $100 to save the day. It's taken me four months to pickup this habit. I can tell you, it works! Especially when two teens whine for $$$ for this and $$$ for that!
Gotta go...hope I didn't bore anyone too much.
